oh please please please... turn back frm the road u are walking down...
i was talking to two rally i dunno. qt depressed pple last night. not tt i dun wanna listen to them cos i really do but it really made me super sad. its like i cant understand y they would feel tt way and i really want to help them but i feel so sad for them. not pity, mind you...just sadness tt they feel tt way and i guess i empathise with them? like can feel thier sadness. anyway it really made me very down and i was crying there in front of my comp and crying out to God. like y does this have to happen to pple? i dunno. but im sure He has His own reasons. den suddenly i got a msg saying "i am a brutal warrior" and like. i dunno it just made me laugh! haha so to everyone hu is like being driven mad by timmos madness, just want you to know tt maybe God was using him! haha. cos it really cheered me up immensely! :)
anyway on to today. and yst. yst i got 10th for 100 free! was really qt pleased cos like last yr i got 18th? haha so 10th a great improvement! yupps. qt happy with my timing oso lah! like did a pb yupps. and for today, i got into finals!!!!! ahhhhhhhhh super happy. i was like thanking God like mad as i got out of the training pool and danced to the grandstand in happiness when i heard my name called out haha... i got 8th lah by a fluke but I DONT CARE! i still got into finals! and zy and ed too!!! was so happy for them! :) sometimes i really wonder y everything works out so well for me all the time. as in really all the time lor... i think there can only be one explanation: God must be preparing me for great trials to come. i really hope tt i can persevere thru them...sometimes im like so scared to wake up and find tt my life was just a dream.
anyway u said u would work things out with urself... i really hope tt u would see tt u are a wonderful person. u are not the monster tt u think u are...and a part of me will really die with you.
i read something... and well i dunno maybe it did hurt me abit lah... i know tt you had higher expectations for urself but i cant help but feel that maybe u feel tt i dont deserve it as much as you do? and since you can easily thrash me in everything tt im just lucky and stuff. i mean i know tt tt is true but as my friend shldnt you be happy for me too? hiahz. ok i guess tt u are happy for me just tt u were so disappointed...im sure u wil do well for ur finals ok!!! i will be rooting u on all the way.i guess its hard for me to understand how much it means to you thus how u get so upset by it. i will try haha... but i dun think i will ever be able to. but for wad its worth... i saw u really try to be happy for me today haha... and i appreciate the effort... i guess i wasnt too sensitive with all the jumping arnd rejoicing and stuff but hey we are in the finals tgt yeah? :) all the way yupps... and i did feel qt bad abt leaving u dere but i thot maybe u wanted time for urself... sorry tho i know u werent upset with me lah but sorry anyway...
anyway had some interview thing with darren today... went to meet david fort before it and we went to crystal jade! haha yumyum. i was so hungry ok i almost died. anyway ok nvm haha... i helped him with shopping~ wow im amazing :)oh man i will so totally remind him when its my birthday lah... hes suc a generous gift buyer haha! ok im being super cheapo here. anyway. the interview was ok... after it darren said some encouraging stuffs tt really i dunno. encouraged me? haha... tho he said im humble which i so am not ok... but i hope tt maybe now i will be able to be more helpful in areas tt im better in lah yupps haha... all in all qt a fruitful day... and i will be praying for you
i was talking to two rally i dunno. qt depressed pple last night. not tt i dun wanna listen to them cos i really do but it really made me super sad. its like i cant understand y they would feel tt way and i really want to help them but i feel so sad for them. not pity, mind you...just sadness tt they feel tt way and i guess i empathise with them? like can feel thier sadness. anyway it really made me very down and i was crying there in front of my comp and crying out to God. like y does this have to happen to pple? i dunno. but im sure He has His own reasons. den suddenly i got a msg saying "i am a brutal warrior" and like. i dunno it just made me laugh! haha so to everyone hu is like being driven mad by timmos madness, just want you to know tt maybe God was using him! haha. cos it really cheered me up immensely! :)
anyway on to today. and yst. yst i got 10th for 100 free! was really qt pleased cos like last yr i got 18th? haha so 10th a great improvement! yupps. qt happy with my timing oso lah! like did a pb yupps. and for today, i got into finals!!!!! ahhhhhhhhh super happy. i was like thanking God like mad as i got out of the training pool and danced to the grandstand in happiness when i heard my name called out haha... i got 8th lah by a fluke but I DONT CARE! i still got into finals! and zy and ed too!!! was so happy for them! :) sometimes i really wonder y everything works out so well for me all the time. as in really all the time lor... i think there can only be one explanation: God must be preparing me for great trials to come. i really hope tt i can persevere thru them...sometimes im like so scared to wake up and find tt my life was just a dream.
anyway u said u would work things out with urself... i really hope tt u would see tt u are a wonderful person. u are not the monster tt u think u are...and a part of me will really die with you.
i read something... and well i dunno maybe it did hurt me abit lah... i know tt you had higher expectations for urself but i cant help but feel that maybe u feel tt i dont deserve it as much as you do? and since you can easily thrash me in everything tt im just lucky and stuff. i mean i know tt tt is true but as my friend shldnt you be happy for me too? hiahz. ok i guess tt u are happy for me just tt u were so disappointed...im sure u wil do well for ur finals ok!!! i will be rooting u on all the way.i guess its hard for me to understand how much it means to you thus how u get so upset by it. i will try haha... but i dun think i will ever be able to. but for wad its worth... i saw u really try to be happy for me today haha... and i appreciate the effort... i guess i wasnt too sensitive with all the jumping arnd rejoicing and stuff but hey we are in the finals tgt yeah? :) all the way yupps... and i did feel qt bad abt leaving u dere but i thot maybe u wanted time for urself... sorry tho i know u werent upset with me lah but sorry anyway...
anyway had some interview thing with darren today... went to meet david fort before it and we went to crystal jade! haha yumyum. i was so hungry ok i almost died. anyway ok nvm haha... i helped him with shopping~ wow im amazing :)oh man i will so totally remind him when its my birthday lah... hes suc a generous gift buyer haha! ok im being super cheapo here. anyway. the interview was ok... after it darren said some encouraging stuffs tt really i dunno. encouraged me? haha... tho he said im humble which i so am not ok... but i hope tt maybe now i will be able to be more helpful in areas tt im better in lah yupps haha... all in all qt a fruitful day... and i will be praying for you
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